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Thursday, September 23, 2010

This Week... Its a special week for me

Well , no outing , no meeting with zaZa , freaking boring at home only. Just watch some movie and read something. During the time , my mind suddenly appear a question. Its keep asking me , do i feel lonely when my family no more bother me , no more contact me. I feeling sad and depressed. Somemore the wednesday is mooncake festival. All my frens and zaZa got thier outing , i just stay at home , i SUPER envy them that they have thier programme on that day , i just stay at home watch the "zhat sing zi lui" , especially is last episode. I feel more depressed and regret of something. Sigh, i feel i owe a lot to my parents, and also owe to zaZa. They help me a lot in everything. Today my mind at least mature than before and i will leave words to them when i go anywhere. BUT not good enough ^^ , i remember my fren's wedding , i make my beloved worry about me , she's not angry me, because she worry about my stomach, she ask me don try to drink much, BUT (facebook) u can see that. Sigh, then second day i broke the promise which is go to CC to find zaZa , thats y she will angry. I feel apologize to her. Because i not good enough. Think back, my daddy , he is the most admirable ppl for me. Because everything he speak out , its very persuasive because of his prestige in our family. Maybe i cannot follow his step and do a same job with him , but everything he teach me , i put in my heart, when i write this part, i cant keeping gulp saliva. BECAUSE until now i cant do anything to pay back him. I got no the capacity of it. I hope i can , I HOPE I CAN !!! I hope he will be always healthy until 100 age. I wait for that day.

zaZa , Daddy , Mom , my 2 brothers ... I hope i can pay back and hope u all have a good life. I DON CARE how suffer in the present and future. Due to all your smile , i feel its worth. ITS TRUE !!! i love you all ^^